Tuesday, March 13, 2007

First born

11 years ago today we were blessed with the arrival of our first born. We were so thankful for this special gift from God. After having 2 miscarriages, we weren't sure if parenting was in the cards for us. Our little man took his time coming. After a spinal, and a visit from the surgeon doing c sections that day, and a few hours of pushing, his dad convinced him it was time. Allan James was finally born, a beautiful little boy with blond hair on a coned shaped head. He was perfect. A little purple, but to us perfect. Compared to my other deliveries, his was the most challenging. I didn't know it at the time, so all was well, he was finally born, and I could finally meet my first blood relative. Someone that was apart of me, someone that had the same genes as me. Someone that might have the same eyes, nose, or smile. The sight of him was overwhelming. A little person given to me straight from the hand of God. What a gift. James Allan, or Allan James? What was his name going to be? Allan James it was. Allan, after my brother who made his way to heaven 4 years earlier, and James after a very special man, who taught us so much about our Saviour, who also was now with Jesus. He would be a constant reminder of 2 very special men in our life. As parents, you wonder who he will take after, will he love sports, will he love to laugh, who will he be like? And then you wait.......and to our surprise he has taken after a uncle he has grown to love, yet has never met. Oh how he wishes he could show uncle Jeff, his bow, pellet gun, air soft pistol, his deer antlers that hang in his room, the fox skin mom bought at a garage sale, how his can kick but in Sega. oh how he would love to go hunting with him, and sit in a tree for hours just to wait for the sight of a deer. Oh how I wish it all for him too. Today we will be gathering with about 8 young men and celebrate the life of our son. The air soft guns will be drawn, and the war will begin. Hot dogs,chips, pop and cupcakes will be served. What a privilege it is to celebrate life. Help us God to be good stewards of what you have given us; our children. We love who you have become in these 11 years Allan. We are so proud of you. Happy Birthday!

11 Comments:

At 12:09 p.m., Blogger Martha said...

Oh Shell, how often I have thanked God for Allan. Right now, you have brought tears to my eyes, just remembering Jeff and how like Allan he was. I think it is all part of God's love for us. I believe it also broke God's heart to see us go through the pain of losing our son (because he also had a son that died). And because there is no blood line, it is definately God's hand that moulded Allan into the person he is - SOO MANY of Jeff's characteristics. My prayer for Allan is that he too will love the Lord as his uncle Jeff did. Thank you Lord!

 
At 12:30 p.m., Blogger Crystal said...

Beautifully written Shell. I have tears streaming down my face as I type. Allan is a wonderful child and his uncle is with him every step he takes. The fact that he loves an uncle he has never met is also a testament to what a wonderful sister you are.

Love you!

 
At 12:44 p.m., Anonymous Anonymous said...

I can't stoop bawling and I have to go to work...beautifully written Shell-bell....Happy B-day Allen....tante L

 
At 4:37 p.m., Blogger Joanne said...

Happy Birthday Allan!
We love you all,
Joanne and the gang

 
At 6:55 p.m., Blogger it's a gong show... said...

Wonderfully written Shelley. You have brought tears to my eyes. Your brother would be so proud of Allan and just the fact that you have told Allan so much about him just shows the kind of mother that you are.

God bless you Allan on this day!

Love you all!

 
At 10:15 p.m., Blogger shelley said...

thank you all for still checking up on me. Don't forget schmidt still happens, even if it is once month.

 
At 9:44 p.m., Blogger esther said...

shelley - that was sooo beautiful.

snif, snif...

allen your first born, your first link with your own genes...hit a trigger for me, our kids that will be coming won't share my genes either, and how, when they have their own children, that will make them feel...

thank you so much for your insight friend. i am so blessed to have you in my life...and you too birthday boy!!!

 
At 8:22 p.m., Blogger Louise said...

Great Post Shelley
Thanks for sharing that, it was beautiful, sure made me recognize again what a gift we have in our kids!!
Thanks

 
At 2:02 p.m., Blogger Brian the Mennonite said...

Wonderful writing, Shelley. You're a great mom for Allan. And he's a great kid. He's the kind of boy that could be seen staring into a simple puddle for hours. Those are the kinds of people that grow into wonderful humans who appreciate what's good and right with this world.

 
At 12:49 p.m., Anonymous Anonymous said...

ckShell! I finally convinced Mom to give me her password so I can be part of the loop. I just read about your first born and as I'm typing I'm sitting here crying.What a great article & so true.Love,Dad.

 
At 1:51 p.m., Blogger it's a gong show... said...

Uncle Bennie, you found your way here!!

 

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